i know how to pick em.

well so, this is my 100th post. do i feel proud to have so much verbal leakage on the internet? not really. but i was kind of thinking of doing something pseudo-nostalgic about it. i have a habit of reading old blogs, not only from here, but from myspace/livejournal (oh yes, i saved them)

however, as much as i try to embrace the past, things happen, people change, i'm supposed to be one of those people... and i think that i am changing a bit at least.

it's just that the good days are really good, then the moments where i slip back into the highly melodramatic moments bring me down so hard... but i'm getting better. i've been so incredibly optimistic lately, and it is a nice change.

yesterday was a busy day... i skipped my first class of the year in favour of going home and taking it easy. i need to sleep more, drink less coffee and eat.

i modeled for jeffrey's portrait project yesterday, which was a wonderfully awkward experience. my friends think it's funny that i could get in front of a room full of people and sing or dance or be a general idiot and then you get one person to take my picture and i'm awkward galore. you would think that i would be ok with him doing it too, seeing as how it's jeffrey... but yea, i'm anxious to see how dumb i look in a bunch of those pictures.

musicians club meeting was pretty great. i met some really neat people who i could see myself collaborating with. we ended up having a huge acoustic jam, where i felt useless... until we all sang "don't look back in anger". it was magic. i really hope that i have time to hang with that group more in the next few weeks, but that all depends on:

abbedam callbacks. that was nervewracking. i hate how nervous i get before auditions. however the callback itself was ok. i think i felt pretty confident about it, but i find out tomorrow either way. i'm trying to not get too caught up on the idea that i have a part because if i didn't get one, i will be crushed. however, i'm trying to weigh pros and cons of not getting a part. pros: i can work more and not be so poor and incapable of paying bills right now... pros: musicians club can take more of a priority... pros: i get to sleep?....cons: holy dissapointment, batman.

today is a get organized day. i think i'll have the house to myself, so it's time to listen to radiohead like radiohead should be listened to. loud and lonely.