after many talks with friends over the past 24 hours, i think i've got it.
i woke up late today, which was not a good thing to do. however, i was up till 2 in the morning catching up with friends and learning to not be angry. i was the weirdest sleep, i closed my eyes then i woke up, late no less.
classes today were slightly boring, things are starting to pick up and i no longer really feel optimistic of my ability to not slack off. i finished my homework during spares this morning and at least was ready for all my classes.
after classes, i went wandering in the river valley for a while. i walked through some trails, got my yellow shoes absolutely hideously dirty and ended up sitting under the high level.
i remember when nathan and i first started dating and we walked there and sat on the edge of the "cliff" and made our relationship official and it was the cutest, (until then) most cliche moment ever. i went back there last year during a spare and then again today and that section of ground has almost all eroded away. it was really hard getting down to the river bank from there.
however, i scaled it in flats and ended up sitting by the river for a while. i love water. if you look at it with half opened eyes you can almost pretend it's the ocean, minus the sweet intoxicating scent of salt water. i did some serious thinking down there, which is always the case. get me somewhere pretty and i'll figure my life out in 10 seconds. i feel better, a little.
then i threw the heaviest rocks i could find into the river because i have pent up garbage and it felt good. real good. so good i did it a lot.
on my walk back i felt like i got a little exercise and now i'm actually kind of tired. however, i still have an hour to waste before my lab. i should be outta here by 9 tonight.
i'm disapointed, i won't lie, however i need someone who gets me. it hurts right now, but it won't later. just keep reminding me to breathe.
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hmm, reading about that i kinda wish more people were as logical as you (seem to be). i walked across the high level a couple days back from class myself and i saw this man walking ahead of me with his two kids. maybe, two years and a year old, both young enough if they wanted to try could slip right under the guard rails. he wasn't holding them by the hand nor did he have them in any kind of stroller, they just ran around freely in between the cycle paths. it was pretty sad.
ugh, i would have been fuming at him by the time i was finished crossing that bridge.
i hate how it takes 4 years... actually 6 years counting learners, to become a fully qualified driver, yet you can have kids whenever you want.
i dunno, as cruel as it sounds he's probably how the darwin awards were invented. pretty sure him and his two sons will join them someday.
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