Monday, October 26, 2009

safe and safely locked away back home.

i have a little bit of a plan.
i need to figure some stuff out before everything goes down.

i'm going to set this plan into motion so that i'm prepared for this mega change i will be placing on myself.

but i don't get why i can't stop crying right now.
i leave for work in half an hour and i just can't stop crying.

Monday, October 19, 2009

retired explorer

crossroads, i guess i'm at 'em.
i'm not the same as i used to be
i can be introspective, i guess. a little lonely though.
this reserved nature i feel i'm exuding more than usual kind of makes me a little anxious.
or maybe something is finally brewing inside.
who knows.

this time i take a camera.
a tripod.
a note book.
a pen.

i have a list of locales, a pair of shoes i love to walk in and music i can drown to.

i want my life to be a black and white film from the 50s.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

somebody: the reckless life and remarkable career of

i'm torn between reading and writing.
the walls in my house are too thin to drown everyone else out. which makes studying a distraction packed nightmare.

the oilers just scored.

i want silk sheets. i want to be naked in them.
i don't have silk sheets, so i'm bundled up in sweatpants.
i've been craving egg salad all day. i don't even know why.
i want to expand my room and remodel everything, i need more hangers.

zeus fucked everything.

i am strongly considering cutting my hair. it will grow later.
i miss the sun, and resent the absence of fall. acclimatizing is hard work.
i crave the feeling of someones hands all over me. i've been too busy, yet not busy at all.

i think it's time for a bubble bath break.