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i'm restless.
restless restless restless.
i'm facing east. or west. no. west.
in a snowstorm.
in a hail storm.
in a blackout.
no, i'm definitely facing west.

i taste it. salty residue. left over on my lips. your skin. definitely your skin.
but why?
why yours? why is it always yours?
it was good sex. i can't lie. probably the best i'll ever have.
future husband and mistress and flippant flings included.

you never held my hand that night. it's your loss. i moisturize after every bath and shower.
fucking smooth.
the smoothest
how smooth?

silk and satin smooth.
smooth like the sahara after the loss of gravity.
aeolian erosion. always the sexiest kind.
that air wraps around you like a stripper on her pole. isn't it warm? that sun is the best.
it was windy a few days ago. prude wind. not sexy wind. the coldest kind
like a slap in the face.
or the denial of pleasure
or the lack of orgasmic flush on the face of a child who's jack in the box is broken.

busted down
need new batteries? i get discounts on those at work.
i don't think new batteries can save you now.

we should go to the polar bear competition.
dive in feet first though, the shrinkage is a bore.

I BIT MY NAILS DOWN TO THE SKIN TODAY.
now my skin is peeling. and removing any trace of your touch from my body.
like a snake.
like a purge.
i'm devouring you in my dreams.

commas change everything. comas put everything on pause.
i need a coma.
or medication to kick start my heart into normal patterns.
or to stop my head.
or to keep my mouth shut.

or to keep my gum in the garbage. how do you think people see you? honestly!

my mouth tastes of cabbage and banillanilla.

i could narrate an experimental film with the shit that falls out of my head.
you don't understand.
i could make something up so you could feel like you understand.
pseudo metaphor. sewdo meaning. soodoo feelings.

i'm not broken. i just need some friction in the right places.