i had a new idea for "mix cds".
i started writing some new songs.
have attempted sleeping at normal, homosapien-esque intervals.
and don't remember the last time i took my medication. (i haven't even been feeling terrible because of it)
i started feeling normal again a few weeks ago, like, human even. not some morose mirage of a human who stumbles through life expecting the unexpectable. it's actually a beautiful feeling, knowing that who you are isn't dependant on who you're with. even more beautiful when you know what you are feeling is because you are experiencing it first hand.
and maybe now that i'm allowing myself to feel again... the good and the bad, that's the reason why i'm having so many ideas for mix cds, writing new songs and sleeping at normal homosapien-esque intervals.
the more i go on being who i am and living the life that i lead, i realize that there are no set answers to questions i have and that it's ok. i just need more time. we all do.
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hm, feeling normal again and abandoning medication are probably a lot more interlinked than anyone realizes. (though you used morose! i don't think i've ever seen anyone else use that word before, so i'm sure you already knew that).
still, it's amazing what a walk can do in place of 100 mgs of something such as prozak. (though you used morose! i don't think i've ever seen anyone else use that word before, so i'm sure you already knew that).
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