don't let him waste your time.

i'm feeling like a baby again... here's some reasons why i want to stay in bed for a week:

• it's cold outside. not just "chilly", but cold. factoring windchill, it was approximately -36 this morning. i thought this was perfectly good cause for not going to my morning class. instead, i rewarded myself with 3 extra hours of sweet, peaceful sleep. however, i am now behind. again.
• i don't want to put my big girl pants on and command attention in the majority of my classes right now. i don't want people to look at me at all either. so, holding auditions, directing a scene, performing a midterm, discussing a research project in class, conducting a verbal presentation and working on macbeth scene doesn't really fly with me right now.
• i'm over thinking stupid little things again. i'm over analyzing things that do not even need to be included in second thoughts. this makes me feel like the dumbest person ever. it's something i feel like i can not control and is therefore, driving me mad. (shut up, jordan)
• i'm exhausted. i don't sleep anymore and when i do, it just sets me up for more dissapointment the next night.
  
• i'm stress eating and therefore feel disgusting. this also contributes to the "DON'T LOOK AT ME" phenomenon associated with my rapidly declining self confidence. this will all work itself out later, when i'm drinking at least a litre of water per day again, and managing to remember that fruit exists.
• did i mention it was cold outside?
• i am slumping creatively. hard core slumping. did i mention i'm an arts student?
  
• my room is a horrific mess. as previously mentioned, the corelation between room cleanliness and frame of mind is undeniable. my life is falling apart because i can't walk in my room.

and my lips are so chapped and windburnt, that they hurt. and not even blistex medicated will soothe my pain.

i need like 12 hugs.