maybe it was just today.
maybe it was the lack of sleep this weekend.
maybe it's the wind. or the cold. or the having to wear jackets.
i feel deflated. i feel sad and lonely and missing something horribly.
maybe i'll wake up tomorrow and be happy again and this day will be a day of the past. a day of momentary weakness.
but i feel so incredibly stalled by crushing loneliness in more than romantic sense.
i feel isolated and unable to really connect with my friends, my family and the world around me.
but then again, it could have only just been today.
rehearsal was hard because i could'nt get into it. not into character, not into the mood of rehearsing... and i get mad at myself because this experience is drawing to a close, i want to savour it. not hate it because i can't feel like things are going good for me.
i'm going to say, today was just a bad day. and tomorrow will hopefully get better.
because i don't have time for a nervous breakdown right now.
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